12.15 pm Saturday 26 April 2025 – Rebirth Day 7 I leave for Sydney this afternoon. I travel straight from the airport to a Hans Zimmer concert. Hans has composed music for movies such as Interstellar. His music is mostly orchestral and one label that could be applied to some of his music is Space Music. I have heard plenty of Space Music before, but it often carries different labels. I have collected music all my life and I give my own labels to the music I collect. One label I use is Space Music – and Hans Zimmer fits nicely into this label. Another label I use is Angel Music. One example of Angel Music is Peter Sterling. Peter was walking one day and had a vision of many angels playing music. Soon after this, Peter walked into a second hand shop where he found a harp for sale. Peter bought the harp even though he had never played the harp before. Six months later, Peter had taught himself how to play the harp and released an album of wonderful music called (naturally enough) Harp Music. To me, Peter’s gorgeous harp music sound very much like Space Music. An Angel Music album called Endless Light by Erik Berglund also sounds like Space Music. I have a different music category for music albums I group under the label Near Death Experience Music. Steve Roach nearly died in a motor bike accident. His three disc album Structures from Silence reproduces as best he was able, the sounds he heard while he hovered just on the other side of life. Structures from Silence is eerily similar (to me) to the albums I group under Space Music and it reminds me in many ways of the music of Hans Zimmer. So, on Day 7 after my rebirth, I will hear Space Music that is also Near Death Experience Music and Space Music that is also Angel Music. I know Margaret definitely died. I was there. In 2018, during my open heart surgery, I was offered the opportunity to die. I rejected that opportunity because somehow, I knew Margaret would need my help very soon. From July 2020, when Margaret was diagnosed with untreatable cancer, until mid July 2021, my body kept insisting that it had the right to die – but I would not let it do this. Because Margaret needed me, death had to wait. From July 2021 until August 2023, I forced myself not to die because Margaret needed me so very much. From the day of Margaret’s death until Sunday 20 April 2025, I so much wanted to die but permission to do this was flatly refused. I wanted to die but was unable. Now on 26 April 2025, I have been reborn and I am 7 days old in this reborn format. I don't really want to be here at all, but I accept that a power greater than me wants me to start again. So, start again, I will. I accept the task that has been given to me, whatever it is. I can and I will do the impossible. I will create a life of beauty and meaning to replace the beauty and meaning that has been torn away from me. I have this message for every one of you who has lost everything that ever meant anything to you. You too can be reborn. One day at a time, one step at a time, let us recreate life. Let us recreate hope and meaning in the waste land that is currently a land of shadows and complete ruin. If we help each other, we can all heal together. Rebirth is for every one of us. This is especially the case for those who, like me, have been lost for such a very long time. | 
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