I took this photo of a tree in full blossom on 14 July 2023 even though Adelaide was still caught in the grip of an icy winter. I told myself that surely Margaret could have a miracle recovery if the tree could flower in such bitterly cold weather.
I received my miracle, but like the flowers on this tree, my personal miracle was short lived.
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Blog 237 finished with extracts from my diary entries for Wednesday the 12th of July 2023. This Blog continues my diary entries from the point where Blog 237 finished.
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Wednesday 12 July 2023 Blog 237’s diary entry finishes this way. [Mary Potter Hospice is physically located in the part of Calvary Hospital where Saint Helen’s Ward was once located. Saint Helen’s Ward opened in 1971 and Margaret was the very first charge nurse in the ward. Marg thinks everything about Mary Potter is appropriate. She was born in Calvary, she trained in Calvary, she was the first charge nurse in Saint Helen’s Ward and now she will die in Calvary in what was Saint Helen’s Ward.] **** Wednesday 12 July 2023 The diary entry for Wednesday 12 July 2023 continues. This house feels lonely already and she is not yet dead. I left home to visit Marg again at 6.00 pm. She is in very good spirits. When I arrived she was in the wheelchair outside Mary Potter smoking a cigarette with Maurine and Ryan who works at Calvary. She eventually agreed to migrate back into her room where the nurses used their contraptions to get her safely back into bed. Jameson and Charli arrived at about 8.30. The talk was good natured and Margaret did not ever lose her good natured edge. By 9.30 I was completely exhausted and I drove home, arriving at 10.00 pm. We have still received no information from the doctors about the progress of the cancer. Thursday 13 July 2023 I go to bed at about 11.45 and sleep solidly until 6.45 on Thursday 13 July. As I get up, I receive a text from Marg saying she has just woken up. She tells me she has slept all night from about 11.45 and that because her body didn’t move during the night, some pain has returned. Her nurse this morning is Rachel who comes from Naas where we got married. I ring Marg after my shower and promise to arrive around 10.00 am. I promise to bring in another copy of the Advance Care Directive. I copy the Directive, collect the other oddments Marg wants me to bring and I leave at 9.45. I stay with Marg until 4.05 and then go home. Heather and Sue came at 1.00 pm while I was having coffee and a sandwich with Carmine. When I return to Margaret’s room at 2.00, she is in process of going to the toilet so I walk around the block with Carmine. When we get back, Steve and Voula from Riverland Fruit and Vegetables are visiting. When the visitors have left, Marg is exhausted and the pain levels are starting to creep back up. She says the pain is mostly from her legs and the ulcers on her left leg. This morning when nurse Rachel was changing the bandages, I commented that the left leg looked better than it had done. Rachel said she was not happy but did not elaborate. Marg has spoken to the doctor in the hospice and he has promised to contact Dr Bishnoi but otherwise appeared not to know any details about the progress of the disease. I promise to return to Mary Potter at about 7.00 pm. When I get home at 4.40, I meditate for an hour and then put my dinner in the oven to heat up. I leave for my return trip to Mary Potter just after 7.00 pm and arrive in time to wheel Marg outside for some cigarettes. Jim Redden arrives while we are still outside. I wheel Marg back indoors when she decides it is too cold to stay outside any longer. We chat in her room until Jim leaves at 9.20; I leave five minutes later. While in Marg’s room she asks the nurse to top up her pain control. When I leave, Marg is still in the wheelchair and I get home at 9.55. It is 10.05 as I write these words. Friday 14 July 2023 I sleep at 10.30 and wake at 6.15 am on Friday 14 July. I receive no contact from Marg so I ring her at 8.30 after breakfast. She has had broken sleep from pain and is anxious for my visit. I promise to come as soon as I have showered and gone to supermarket to do some shopping. It is now 8.55. It is 9.55; I have done the shopping and I am leaving for Mary Potter. I am home again at 3.00 and will return later this evening. Marg’s pain relief did not work properly during the evening and it was recalibrated this morning. It is now working properly again. Visit from Cath Keough this afternoon just before I left. Chatted with Cath outside the hospital. I will now change and do walk. Margaret rings me at 3.33 while I am walking. The Calvary doctor has spoken to Dr Bishnoi. The cancer should be stable and what Margaret has been going through are probably result of side effects of the cancer treatment. The cancer may NOT have spread. Dr Bishnoi will visit Margaret in Mary Potter later today once he has finished attending to his other patients, but is unable to say when he might arrive. I tell Margaret I will return home and return to Mary Potter immediately. It is 4.06 as I type this entry. I am about to return to Mary Potter. Will Margaret perhaps be able to recover and come home? |